We've all said things that we didn't mean

Never realizing that words can make others crumble to their knees

So easily we disregard the tears that mar another's face

And they are too easily overwhelmed by the pain beneath the surface

Words hold more power than you know

And we all reap what we sow

Late at night I still hear her mother's sobbing screams

I still see that tear stained face in my dreams

I never meant to be so cruel

I wanted to fit in; I was such a fool

I still remember hearing about her death

How the news took away my breath

It felt as the world had dropped out from under me

And the ones I worked so hard to impress just started laughing

I can still hear the jeering of my "friends"

And I still remember how I buried the pain and smiled back at them

But when I was alone that night

I sat alone on my bed and cried

I cried for the loss of innocence and more

I grieved like I never had before

Her funeral was a few days later

And I skipped school just to see her

The pain frozen on her lifeless face broke my heart

It tore my entire world apart

I haven't spoken or smiled since that day

What things could I possibly say?

Apologies would be so meaningless and empty

Words can't bring a child back to her family

I see all the pain I've caused every time I close my eyes

I never wanted any of this to arise

But soon I will make everything right

You see, I have a mission to fulfill this night

I'll find the other offenders one-by-one

And make them all regret the abuse they've done

I never wanted things to get so out of control

Oh, Please, Dear God, have mercy on my soul

By now, you're probably be horrified by all that I wrote

But it doesn't matter because I know that by the time you find this note

And the last line has been read

That I'll be lying across her grave with a bullet in my head